Friday, January 08, 2010
It's all Bullshit,you know it is, so Shut Up.
you say i don't have to worry about stuff like this. we're both the same, look at you, look at her, we don't have that and we're happy. and i'll smile and nod, say it makes sense, when actually i know we're Not the same, and you Do have that or at least you're about to get it.and look at you now. you've got it and it feels great doesn't it? that's why you'll never understand how i feel. You'll never understand what it's like to want something so bad, and all you can do is dream of when your time will come, not knowing when it will come, and being terrified, the longer you wait, that it's Never gonna come. you'll never understand the fear, or the loneliness. The irrational pain that's self-inflicted, the same excuse used over and over to try and protect yourself, but really, it never works.
How is it that people who have never really shown any sign of want or care for something get it so easily? And those who would die for it can barely even touch it with their fingertips?
Why must life work so unfairly?
Jealousy, it's possibly the worst emotion to have, ever.
I don't know why this suddenly came on.
or why it came on only now.
you say i don't have to worry about stuff like this. we're both the same, look at you, look at her, we don't have that and we're happy. and i'll smile and nod, say it makes sense, when actually i know we're Not the same, and you Do have that or at least you're about to get it.and look at you now. you've got it and it feels great doesn't it? that's why you'll never understand how i feel. You'll never understand what it's like to want something so bad, and all you can do is dream of when your time will come, not knowing when it will come, and being terrified, the longer you wait, that it's Never gonna come. you'll never understand the fear, or the loneliness. The irrational pain that's self-inflicted, the same excuse used over and over to try and protect yourself, but really, it never works.
How is it that people who have never really shown any sign of want or care for something get it so easily? And those who would die for it can barely even touch it with their fingertips?
Why must life work so unfairly?
Jealousy, it's possibly the worst emotion to have, ever.
I don't know why this suddenly came on.
or why it came on only now.
12:20 AM.
